Retrieving your spirit

As survivors of childhood sexual abuse, a decision to heal takes courage. No matter how old we are, unless we have done this work we still carry that frightened child within us. Our childhood innocence and trust were abruptly and traumatically stopped. We were not able to develop through the natural stages of life. All of us carry the scars of shame, fear, repressed anger and confusion we all have that stigma plastered inside of us of being shameful, damaged and unworthy.

To begin to heal the spirit we need to bring normal loving feelings back to our bodies. We need to dislodge the deep conditioning in our bodymindspirit which produce memories and habitual reactions. We can begin the process of recognizing our own lovely beautiful bodies. Feeling real love for our bodies helps us to heal on a primal level. Little by little we can learn to feel again.

A healing session to begin the process is one that I call ’Absorbing Love’

Find a safe place with windows and doors locked. Lie on the floor or bed, place a sheet or blanket over you. The more afraid you are, the thicker the blanket should be. Trace an invisible circle around you to help create the feeling of safety. Place a bed pillow under your torso and head letting your hips remain on the floor. Bend your knees with feet on the floor and then let the knees fall out and the soles of your feet come together. You can also put a pillow under each knee to support your hips. Bring your arms out into a T position. Lie in this open position under your blanket and feel your breath moving through your body. You can use the silent or vocal mantra “I am safe” with each breath. You might feel vulnerable in this pose, just remember you are safe and in control. With each breath and each mantra your body will begin to relax and let go. As your body thaws out from years of being frozen in fear, memories may surface. If this happens gently tell yourself, that is over, no one can frighten or hurt me again, take a deep breath and consciously let it go.

Our hands have great healing powers. They are the givers of our hearts energy, which have both physical and spiritual qualities. This hands on healing work is quiet powerful. It restores peace and balance to area that have been traumatized.

ALIGNING YOURSELF WITH YOUR POWER

Take yourself, again. to a safe place, taking a few deep breaths. Feel your hearts energy. Feel the internal warmth of this most magnificent organ. Think of something very sweet, like a child’s smile. Feel that warmth and loving feeling travel down your arms and into your hands. See your hands filled with healing light. This energy is from your deepest core, from the Holy place within you. Let your hands lay on the crease between your legs and torso, use your fingers to massage this crease. You will probably feel the ache of years of tightness and holding on. Let your gentle massage begin the healing process. If feelings arise tell yourself “I am safe” Offer love and compassion to this part of your body. Next place your hands of light on your belly. The belly is a huge storehouse for energy. A balanced full center gives us our personal power. Allow this healing light to restore your power. Stay as long as you like, listening to your breath and absorbing the light. Place your hands on your chest, allowing this healing light to caress your heart. As you feel this loving touch, old emotional wounds will begin the healing process. Again stay as long as it feels good. Hold your ribs, feel the comfort of your loving hands. Place your hands on your throat, healing all constriction you have felt. Let your hands take away any stagnant energy from stifling your words and silencing your screams. Let this healing light penetrate every cell in your body. Place your hands on your forehead and feel this light restoring your spiritual vision restoring your faith in your intuitivism, allowing yourself to trust yourself again. Do not be afraid of your anger or your tears. If they come let them surface. Honor your grief. you deserve it.

When you are finished with your healing session say a thank you to all the mystical powers of the universe, that you are healed. Remember your true God given identity, your true beauty, your Divine essence can never be taken away from you. Gently and compassionately you can reclaim your life. You can be the person you were born to be.

Linda Cucurullo is a Spiritual mentor and healing partner. She offers group and private healing sessions. Ms. Cucurullo is the director of Basic Moves school of yoga and the healing arts. She can be reached at 516 483 4453/ www.journeyinward.com